Endings only lead to new beginnings

Today is my last day of summer. I'm very familiar with the whole back to school/end of summer kind of thing. This year it feels a bit different. This is my last summer as a high school student. It's scary to think about, but also exciting. All good things must come to an end. The brighter side is one door closes to another open door. After high school is college, a new chapter in my life.

It's time to start taking responsibility for everything. It scares me, but thinking about the Independence and the fun I'm going to have makes up for it. Growing up is scary, but we all have to do it. It's not the ending, it's only the beginning.

How much more?

I've had it to my wits end with rude people. First, there are things called manners. I figured this was a given, simple social skill which people just acquired after enough time around other people. Wrong. It seems some of my family have not learned what manners are. It drives me crazy!

Second, what gives someone the right to be totally impolite and say such hurtful things and rude comments? "Why are you here?" Since when did you own this house, which you are visiting in? Since when is it okay to make me feel unwanted and be rude? I don't have to be nice and I don't have to visit, next time I won't bother.

Third, I do speak my mind. This does not make me a "heartless bitch." But thank you for trying to understand me. By the way, you fail. By stating the truth that a family member has done a lot of damage to my self-esteem and has been nasty to me, doesn't make me a bitch. I only said what everyone else thought and was afraid to say. I know how I feel and I'm not going to hide it. I've worked way too hard to get to the point I don't bottle it all up.

Lastly, I'm done. If I get pushed away further, then so be it. I am not willing to keep trying and failing. I'm tired of this one step forward, two steps back.