You Say Goodbye and I Say Hello

In just a few days we will be saying goodbye to 2008 and hello to the new year, 2009. We can all highlight the important events in this year for ourselves and for the world. Maybe I'll even make a mix cd of my favorite songs that came out this year. There's a lot to think about, when it comes to 2008. It's not just this year, it's every year. Try to remember some of the good things, and even some of the bad.

In 2009 decide to make some new changes. Maybe volunteer more or just help out around the house a little more. Not only should you try to carry out a New Year's resolution, but you should try to make life better in general. Maybe this year we can all make a bit of a difference. A new year is a new start.

To all of my readers, I'd like to thank you for this year. I've gotten a book published, I've written a lot of blogs, I'm even going to be on the school newspaper next semester. I wouldn't be anywhere without you guys, though. Have a happy New Year everyone!

My Christmas Wish

Every year I wish for world peace, and that again is what I've wished for. For just one day, I want everyone to be civil. I want people to treat others as if they were best friends, even if they're enemies. Just for Christmas, is that too much to ask for?
After all, Christmas spirit is about family and friends. It's about love that warms us all. It's when everyone gets together and acts like a family. It's a time of giving, not just presents, but also kindness. All I want for Christmas, is one day where everyone is nice and there's no hate. Just one day. Merry Christmas everyone.

Raising the Confidence

In today's society if you're not skinny, not "normal", not pretty enough, or don't like popular things, you are an outcast. You are labeled as uncool. Some of us choose not to notice and some of us wish we could also ignore it. I'm not here to rant about bullying or how society can be so cruel. This time I want to reach out and spark some confidence in people like me. We know how it feels to be unaccepted and it's time we stop caring. We need to be confident, because we are all equal people.

Lets face the facts:

1. We can never be skinny enough, because that's not why they dislike us.
   
2. What is normal? It's subjective, and everyone has their own opinion.
3. Everyone is beautiful in one way or another.
4. Looks aren't everything, because eventually they fade.
5. The people who judge others are cowards, and have to make others feel small so they can pretend they feel bigger.
6. They don't matter to us if they have to act so rudely and immaturely.

We don't need to impress anyone, because those who matter don't care about who we are, how we act, or what we like and wear. As long as you can be happy with yourself, that's what matters. Why should we let them make us feel bad? We're all people and it's time we all act more civilized towards each other. From now on let's all try to be confident and be at least courteous towards each other, if not only nice. Not everyone can abide by how I think and feel about this topic. That's not even my goal. My goal is to reach out and help a group of people, or even just one person with my writing. Now, I'll leave you with your thoughts and hope you take to this with a different outlook.

Free Hugs

All it takes is one hug, one love, and the world is a little brighter. Juan Mann displayed this in his hometown located in Australia. He knows the feeling of loneliness and wants to change that for other people. This is a great man. He had the courage to stand alone on the streets with his free hug sign, just so he could reach out and help others.

Eventually free hugs were banned because of public liabilty fear and red tape. A petition was started to bring back free hugs. After 10,000 signatures were collected free hugs made a come back. Now most people are familiar with the free hug campaign video, which shows Juan Mann with his free hug sign and trying to gain enough signatures. The song is "All The Same" by Sick Puppies. It is one of the best songs and videos out there.

For more information about the Free Hug Campaign follow this link: http://www.freehugscampaign.org/

Optimism

I've probably written about this a thousand times, but seriously, I am so tired of all the pessimism in the atmosphere. Something goes wrong, oh my world is coming to an end, everything is so messed up. All I want to say is; STOP IT and SHUT UP!

I'm always here to listen whenever you want to talk, but here are some things to not do when you come to tell me all your problems. First, don't start yelling, don't get pissy with me. Second, see first example. Next, don't be so pessimistic. It's not the end of the world. Last, absolutely do not talk to me and before I can help walk away.

I could name some people in this, but if they can't figure out who they are then I haven't done my job as a writer and blogger.

One last thing, stop being so pessimistic. Just for once, humor me, be optimistic. If something goes wrong, try to fix it. If you can't, stop complaining and deal with it. We're not five we should deal with things in a mature way. Things can and will get better and it starts with you. Change your attitude and have a whole new outlook on life.

Apocalyptica

As some of you know, I'm not just a writer. I also play the violin. There are some days it would seem easier to just give up because I can't get the music down or I get frustrated because my strings are way out of tune. That's where inspiration comes in. This year my school got a new orchestra teacher. I must say, she really knows her stuff. The best thing is, she told me about this band called Apocalyptica. Three cellos and a drummer playing rock... AMAZING!

Apocalyptica is the most kick ass string band I've ever seen! After I first listened to some of their music I had to have it. Unfortunately, I currently only have nine songs. Thanks to the new orchestra teacher I have the sheet music for "Drive."

Anyway, let's get back to Apocalyptica and their awesomeness. They've done covers of Metallica songs and they sound great! One of my current favorites is their song and video for "I Don't Care" featuring Adam Gontier, it is one of the most brilliant songs ever! I can't even describe how awesome their music is! All I have to say is go check it out.

Websites to check out:
http://www.apocalyptica.com/
http://www.youtube.com/user/apocalypticavideos?ob=4

Inconprehensible Love

Some may think "Andee, you're too young to know anything about love," but I have to disagree. Babies even know what love is when they're first born and held in their parents' arms. Comprehending love is something no one can do. It doesn't matter if you're five, sixteen, thirty, or eighty-nine, no one can exactly comprehend what love is.

It is a feeling, one of the best feelings in the world. It's so good that sometimes it'll keep you up just thinking about that special person. I think Dr. Suess said it best when he said “You know you're in love when you can't fall asleep because reality is finally better than your dreams.”
Every little thing is gigantic and means more than you ever thought it would. Holding hands makes the butterflies flutter in your stomach. Saying those three words can make your heart race one hundred mph. Just seeing them puts a smile on your face.

Then there are the things you'd do for that person. You know you'd go above and beyond for them. There isn't anything in the world you wouldn't do, because you love them. The trust is unbelievably strong, because for once love has opened your mind and heart. The bond is unbreakable. You'll always be there for each other.

All of these things describe love. They describe how you feel or how you act, but none of them can even compare to what love really is. There just aren't enough words to ever describe love. Love is so complicated that it's simple. The only thing any of us needs to know is that love just is.

Best Friends

Katie, you're my cousin, my best friend. I can tell you everything and trust you more than I can trust anyone else. We have crazy times, but nevertheless funner than anyone else would know. There are millions of pictures of us, starting from when we were little kids to now. We've spent nights staying up late just to talk and giggle (Mostly giggle.) Then there are those nights we stayed up to prank phone call people, saying the most random things, trying to keep people on for as long as we could. Ah, those are the days.

Together we've faced some of the most difficult and even treacherous mountains of problems. You always have my back and I will always have yours. Trust is never an issue, I can trust you with my life. You know all my secrets, even the ones nobody else knows.

We sure know how to have fun. Dancing, singing, video making, picture taking, and who could forget DDR and sing star? Some day we will learn the dance moves to Thriller and at both of our weddings we'll get up and do the whole dance. When we get old and are in wheelchairs, we'll run around causing trouble with our motor scooters and laugh about it for hours.

Katie, you're my best friend. I wouldn't change a thing about it. Well, I'd make you live closer to me, but hey, thirty minutes isn't too bad. I love you like a nerd loves math, and we are definitely tighter than a fat guy in spandex. To our friendship, to us. Don't ever forget it.

Group

All right, so those of you who have facebook and you happen to read my blog, this is for you! I made a new group on facebook about being against drugs, alcohol, and smoking. It's called We Won't Throw Our Lives Away. If you have facebook you can join because it is open to everyone and is a global group. Please, please join and feel free to post on there! All right, now I'll post a link. =]

We Won't Throw Our Lives Away

I'm sorry this is kind of sloppy. I don't have much time, so I'm typing it fast and I didn't edit. Thanks for reading!! Please join!!

Decide

Everyone has fallen into the tormenting clutch of peer pressure. I'm sure we've all let it influence our decisions if not control them at least once. Sometimes the damage can be fixed, but sometimes there are things you can't turn back. That's why peer pressure is so bad. Those permanent decisions can make a world of a difference. Don't get me wrong, not all peer pressure is bad, although most of it is.

The moral of this blog; don't let peer pressure bother you. It's part of life. Although, some is good, a lot is bad. Use common sense and decide for yourself. Make your own decisions. If you need help with a decision you can always ask, but don't let that be your whole decision. Put in your own thoughts, think about it, and then decide. I could go on about how peer pressure is good and bad, but let's just end it here, I'm sure we've all heard everything about it.

I Am Carmen

As some of you know, I've been writing a book. Drake My Lycan Brother is my accomplishment and I couldn't be prouder. I spend day after day thinking about it. All of my characters are perfect in my eyes no matter how many flaws they actually have. Plus, the more I think about it, I am Carmen in more than one way. The constant thoughts make me feel more like her everyday. Maybe I'm not like her, but she is like me.

More about the book, I'm still editing. There are just a few more pages that need to be edited and a few new things to add. It should not be much longer before it's all wrapped up and sent off to a publisher. I am thrilled about how it has all turned out and can not wait for all my readers from when I first started to finally see how it all goes. I'll give you all an update soon! Thanks for all of you who have been here to support me!

P.S. I'm still deciding on a final pen name. Andee Divine or Andee Rose? Any thoughts?

Butterflies

One person can make such an impact on another's heart. One person can make life greater than anyone ever imagined. All it takes is one smile from him, and I'm smiling too. I get these butterflies in my stomach every time I hear our song. Every time he kisses me, I get them too. He can hold my hand, but also my heart. There aren't enough words to describe exactly how I feel, so I'll sum them up in just three words. I love you, Bill.

We Have the Willpower

Willpower, also known as determination, a quality some of us have and some of us wish we had more of. When it comes down to it, the willpower to do something will keep you strong. It doesn't always have to be the willpower to do something, it can be to stand up for yourself and not do something. You have to hold yourself high enough that you won't fall to peer pressure. You have to be determined to accomplish dreams and goals.

Don't ever let anyone get their hooks in you and keep you from doing what you want to do. Just smile and say "I won't give up." It proves you're a stronger person if you don't sink low like them. Plus, if you don't get upset, chances are that will irritate them more. They want to get to you and if you don't let them, they'll be irritated.

All in all, determination is your friend. It can keep you from falling to peer pressure, help you accomplish dreams and goals, and not to mention, help your self-esteem. You should never let anyone have power over you, so show them you have the willpower to be a better, stronger person.

Oh it is Love

"When you look me in the eyes, And tell me that you love me. Everything's alright,When you're right here by my side." -Jonas Brothers

When we embrace I get butterflies. I've wanted this for so long. Now I don't ever want to let go. I don't want to ruin this.

Every time I hear our song, I think of you. "These words are my heart and soul." -Sum 41

When you hold my hand, you touch my heart. This is a dream come true.

How Could This Happen to Me?

Drunk driving, it can happen to you. April 12, 2005 it happened to me. I lost my uncle Kevin because one man made the decision to drink and drive. Kevin lost his life and my family lost someone very dear. No one really ever realizes the affect until it happens to you. Some people think it can't possibly happen to them. I'm talking from experience and honestly, I never expected something like that to ever happen. It did happen, it's been three years and there isn't a day where I don't think about it.

The only good thing that came of it was a lesson. I will never drink alcohol and I will never drink and drive. I can not possibly put myself in that kind of situation where I could hurt someone. I wish more people realized how bad it really is. Every fifteen minutes someone dies in a drunk driving accident. That is too many. We have the choice, we can make it better. Think before you act. Don't drink and drive.

20 Ways to Make a Girl Smile

I was going through my photobucket stuff and found this. I just thought it was a nice little thing. Hope you enjoy it!

Grandmas

These ladies are the ones to look up to. They have so many years under their belts and a ton of wisdom. There are times they appear weak, but inside they're stronger than you could ever imagine. They've had experience beyond our years. Grandmas are smart and strong. When you need someone, they're always there. You don't have to look far, for they're always in our hearts. A grandma can bring so much love to a life and are the beautiful blossoming tree at the end of a difficult path.

Andee Rose
For all of my grandmas

Earth Day!

Because today is Earth Day, try to take an extra step and do something good for our environment.



Recycle
Reuse
Reduce
Replenish
Restore

We should make everyday Earth Day!

Happy Earth Day Everyone!


Love,
Andee!
^_^

I'm Not Going to Hide it Anymore!

XLike me for who I am. I've always been afraid to admit things, but I'm tired of keeping it a secret. If you hate me for it, then you weren't really my friend to begin with. If you make fun of me, then you're the one with the problem, not me. Let's get this all out in the open. Music is music... I love listening to Nsync, Backstreet Boys, Spice Girls, Jonas Brothers, Rihanna, and other bands/singers like that. I always have! I've always loved the 90's pop I grew up on! I can't help it, nor do I want to change it.
XI'm getting real tired of people making fun of me. You know who you are. You knew I liked this music, and you made fun of me for it. I don't care how you think it sounded when you said it. The point is it hurt my feelings. I finally got to this point that I don't care anymore. I'm going to like what I want, and you can either accept it or not.
XMusic isn't the only problem though. I don't have a religion. I don't want one either. Honestly, I don't think the human mind has the capacity to understand the universe, so stories are made up. I hate this state and I want out. I want to go far away. I hate sports. I can't play them well so stop giving me crap because I'm not as good as you! I can try, but I'm not the best.
XThe moral of this story, take me for who I am. I'm not going to change myself to impress you. I'm not going to hide things because you hate them. Hate me or love me, I could care less.

"I'd rather be hated for who I am than loved for who I'm not." -Kurt Cobain

Shallow

Today's topic: being shallow. This is a topic that bothers me a lot, so let's address it now. To start, I'm going to give a definition of shallow, so the interpretations of my blog is a little clearer. Shallow - lacking depth; superficial: a mind that is not narrow but shallow. (Yes, I pulled that off of dictionary.com so it's the real definition)

All right, now that we all understand what shallow is, let's talk about it in depth. Haven't we all heard "Don't judge a book by it's cover" at least once? This means person is better determined by they're personality versus they're appearance.

The question is; does their physical appearance matter to you? Personally, I care more about what kind of person they are rather than what they look like. Beauty is only skin deep and only lasts for so long. Eventually beauty will fade and what will be left? They're inner beauty is the correct answer.

The reason this topic is so concerning to me is because it happens all the time. Today was a good example. I'm not really going to cover what happened. The point is, I was very happy with myself because I realized, I'm not shallow. I'm glad I'm not.

Remember: Inner beauty lasts a life time. Physical beauty is only skin deep. "Don't judge a book by it's cover!"

John Lennon

John Lennon. He sang, he painted, he wrote, he played guitar, but that's not why he matters to me. There is much more than his talent. It was his beautiful mind, his ideas, and dreams. John Lennon is my idol; he makes the biggest impact on my own ideas and dreams.
He dreamed of a better tomorrow, no war and only peace. He preached love and said what he felt. I admire his honesty and his bravery to do so. I admire how he spoke out and wanted good. He was never afraid to say anything.
Sure, many hated him, but more loved him. There are plenty of us who admire him to this day. When it comes down to the line, what could have happened if he hadn't been assassinated? Would the world be more peaceful? Would there be more love instead of so much hate? Sadly, we'll never know.
John Lennon is my idol, my role model. He's made me see things in a new way. I want to make a difference like he did. Maybe I can't be as well known as him, but I want to make a difference. I want to stand up for what I think is right. Someday, I will get the chance. "You may say I'm just a dreamer, but I'm not the only one."

Just Be Nice!

As usual, I've been reading things and searching the web. Sadly, I always find something negative. I know it's everywhere, but to know that it's happening so close to home makes it worse. I'd like to identify and discuss.

Really, hate groups, messages/comments, bashing, ect. All of that is very childish! As high schoolers, shouldn't we be more mature? Oh that's right, should be.... That doesn't mean all of us are.

Doesn't it bother anyone else? I hate seeing things like this. Such fowl language everywhere and constantly. Sure, a few swear words are bound to slip out from your lips once in a while. That's not what I'm talking about. I'm talking about the constant swearing. It sounds and looks horrible and it's just so disrespectful!

Next, what is up with the fights? Why can't we be more mature and be diplomatic? I hate seeing or hearing someone use any sentence with the word fight and they're implying they want one. Haven't you got anything better to do? Or is it the attention you want?

Cool the attitudes! Think positive! It isn't impossible. Can't we just all get along? I know I'm asking a lot, but next time you think about saying something hateful, think about the causes and effects. Remember, we're all in this together. We have the choice and power to make a difference.

Pollution of the Body

Why would you ever want to drink, smoke, or use drugs? I can't find any rational reason why it's necessary to pollute your body. You can live a happy life without doing all the polluting. Usually you feel worse when you use drugs, smoke, and drink. Eventually it catches up with you. Sure you feel great for a little bit, but in the end is it worth it? I value my life, my health, my intelligence, I'm not going to waste it. As cheesy and overused as it is,it's still valid,Say no to drugs! Don't pollute your body!

Little Minds, Easily Influenced

I babysit, just like many other teenagers. As I babysit, the more I learn about little minds. The most important thing to remember is they are easily influenced. Peers, television, video games, movies, and adults make a huge impact. Sadly, they aren't always good ones. Some little kids will say inappropriate things to get laughs out of their friends. One of the kids I babysit knows a lot of cuss words I know. This is a problem because he is eight and I am fifteen. Peers in any setting, make one of the biggest influences. Some kids find it a necessary to be "cool" and they do stupid things to be "cool." The media has very few good role models anymore. They promote women to look like barbies, that no ordinary girl could be. There are more inappropriate language and scenes that little minds shouldn't see. It makes me sad that society is lowering its expectations for good. I mean really, how sad, people would rather watch violence. Where is the good in that? Little kids are the future. Shouldn't we teach them good morals and not violence?

Lyrically Speaking

Okay... I've had all day to think... and I'm going to try to write a blog using just song lyrics (with a few added words as needed) to describe how I feel. ^_^

This crazy little thing called love, and there's nothing good about saying goodbye. We sense the danger, but don't want to give up. Trust is a word all lovers know. The glorious art of staining souls, but don't let memories go. The trouble with love is it can tear you up inside, and make your heart believe a lie. Love and loss, embrace the pain. Regardless, my heart beats the same. Do you find me dreadful? Well, Here comes the rain again, falling from the stars. I'm drenched in my pain again, becoming who we are. It's a beautiful lie. It's the perfect denial. Empty words from empty hearts, shattered to pieces and torn apart. Separated with distance so far away, only wishing you would have stayed.

That about wraps it up for now. ^_^

Artists: Queen, Hinder, HIM, Tokio Hotel, Lovex, Kelly Clarkson, Escape The Fate, AFI, Green Day, 30 Seconds To Mars, Andee Rose(poem not lyrics but oh well)

P.S. I don't care if you don't like it... I worked on this and I like it just fine. ^_^

It Could Be Good

Love can be a good thing,
But sometimes it hurts like hell.
Yet time and time again,
We fall for it!
We take risks for it!

Love can be a good thing,
But can make you crash hard.
Yet once again, as you've seen,
We are always lured!
We are determined to have it!


This is just a rough draft for my new poem, so it's not the best.

Stupid, Foolish Girl

Stupid, foolish girl!
You fall for it everytime!
Sometimes your heart does lie.
That's when you should listen to your mind
They don't always agree, you know.
Yes, it gets hard deciding which is right.
It really would be better if you'd listen.
Stop being so foolish, you know better!
Learn from your mistakes!

The Sun Will Come Out Tomorrow

Just because one day things look bad doesn't mean they'll be bad the next day. I can honestly say today turned out better than I intended it to. Of course I figured it'd be a nice day, but it got even better. All thanks to the wonders of music. It can be so reviving and make an incredible impact on your mood.
Music has always made an impact on my life; it's simply part of me. Today I'm glad I chose to listen to an abundant amount of music. It really did help me, and now I feel a lot better. Sometimes we look hard for something to help when something so obvious, like music, can be a cure.
Yesterday I was doubting things, but today I feel better about that. If he feels better, that helps me. My mom has called me an incurable optimist multiple times. I really like to help people, and when I make somebody else feel good, I feel really good. On the other hand, there's a point where you have to say enough is enough. I can't always fix everything. That doesn't mean I'm simply giving up, it means I've gotten to a point I can't help. I like to call it "The point of no return." So maybe I've really tried everything I can do, but I don't ever just give up. I try until I know for sure I can't do anything.
All of this brings us to my motto/theme for the day. Motto/Theme: The right amount of determination will get you where you want to go. Meaning: Too little determination and you'll begin to doubt yourself and not make your goal. Then again, if your too determined you could be unfair and even become a tyrant. The right amount can be critical. Remember that too much of a good thing can be a bad thing.
Have a nice evening everyone!

Our Forecast is a Delightful Day of Rain

Clouds move in and everything grows dark. Raindrops fall from clouds above. The pitter patter on the window pane resonates through the room. Everything has become silent with the exception of the rain. It is soothing and delightful. Finally a forecast of something nice and calm. Don't think of it as a depressing rainy day. Eventually the sun will shine and we will feel it's warmth. As for today, our forecast is a delightful day of rain.

Crazy Little Thing Called Love

In love you have to make sacrifices. Sometimes they hurt and the pain lasts for awhile, but we have to stay strong. Life never gets that bad. I know its past 3:30 in the morning, but I've been up for two hours thinking.

There are good and bad reasons to be in a relationship. I don't really want to discuss that at this moment. Moving on, I've thought about it and if it takes me getting hurt to make him better then that's the way it'll be. That is what love is about. Yeah, it sounds crazy, but we have to make sacrifices for the ones we love.

He's not the only one I'd do this for. If my friends needed something I'd be sure to try my best to do whatever it takes. I know what I plan on doing will hurt but only for so long.

"From lashes to ashes and from lust to dust, your sweetest torment, I am lost, And we sense the danger but don't want to give up, Oh it's heartache every moment, from the start till the end" -HIM

"Love is the funeral of hearts. Falling in love is the best way to kill your heart because then it's not yours anymore. It's laid in a coffin waiting to be cremated." -Ville Valo

I know it sounds rather pessimistic for me, but I think that way too. Yeah, I'm very optimistic a lot of the time, and even now I am. I know life goes on and I know it will get better. So I'll leave you with this thought; when it comes to those we love, sometimes whats best for them isn't always what sounds the most appealing.

Before It's Too Late

Before it's too late I need to talk,
Tell you the things I've kept inside.
Emotions and thoughts all bottled up,
It's not right to keep it from you.
You've always been there,
And I've been too afraid.

I know better, to let you in.
You're my best friend,
Who I left out in the dark.
I'm so sorry, you should have known.
My feelings are locked in,
But now I'm letting them out.

I'm open to be exposed,
For what I really am.
No more hiding them,
My thoughts and feelings.
You'll be the first to know,
Just how everything is.
-Andee Rose

Labels are for Soup Cans

For once in my life, I want to be "normal." No more stereotypical labels. I want to be me and accepted for it. I am so tired of being called moronic labels. They are everywhere and some can be degrading. I suppose some of us have not heard the saying "Don't judge a book by its cover." Either that or people just don't care. I'm betting on that second one. Clothing doesn't make the person. It's what is on the inside that counts! Labels are for soup cans, not people.